Random question

I know this is random but, is anyone still seeing or have recently been to their pediatrician. I know mines go until 21. Which means that's I'll have the same doctor as my baby, (if we conceive). I stupidly talked to my pediatrician about getting pregnant rather than my OBGYN which wasn't a great idea because he put me down bad. I just really don't feel comfortable with my OBGYN and I get so nervous when I get there and try to talk to her, I feel like I'll be judged by her the same way my doctor did.