My sister in law is in labor right now. Just got the text that her water broke. I'm happy, that was my first reaction like yay she's coming and then it sunk in...I would've been almost 19 weeks along had my most recent pregnancy not ended in a blighted ovum😢 I want to be there at he hospital and then I don't, I get this knot and feeling that I just want to cry again...it hurts, more than I would've imagined...I hate that jealousy feeling I get because I sincerely am not jealous of her but it's a feeling that just doesn't go away...