I am upset and I just want someone to tell me it's gonna be ok

Tammy • aloha! ttc #1 trying since 2010 1 chemical pregnancy
I started tracking my ovulation like three days ago. I hate these tests. Either I'm not reading them correctly or they're just hard to read altogether. Glow says this is my fertile week. Ovia says that next week is my fertile week. It's been shitty dealing with work and my husband getting ready to leave again (military) and im just really stressed out and tired and I hate taking this stupid clomid. My body is stupid. Temping is stupid. I just want a kid👶, is that ofuckingkay?