Spotting 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Tara β€’ 35,luckiest wife married to the love of my life, blessed mama to the sweetest 3 year old and 3 month old boys πŸ’™
I can't go through it again. I had some spotting a little bit ago. Bright red. Not a lot, but still. I know what it likely means. And I am heartbroken. It's so hard to be hopeful. You start to feel like that just keeps you from facing reality a little bit longer. I do want to be hopeful this is nothing. But I just don't know. 😒😒