Apple pie life

I wish I'd had a normal relationship. I wish we'd lived together and he proposed to me and we had a happy engagement before getting married and having a wedding like everyone else. Instead the military got in the way and here we are...2,000 miles from our friends and family, no engagement, no wedding, married by a clerk at a government building with a stranger for a witness. People told me I was making a mistake but I was miserable and at rock bottom and reaching for any sort of positivity in my life. Unfortunately I made a mistake that isn't easily undone.