I need advice

Erica • I recently had a miscarriage and we are trying to have a baby we have been trying for about 5 months praying and hoping
I don't know what to do any more I feel at a complete loss I feel like I'm in a relationship that we have to hide bc of his baby mama drama and how he don't want people at his work knowing that I was expecting then lost the baby like should I feel the way I do that I'm going threw this hard time alone I have no one to talk to about it I try to talk to him but he don't say much he don't understand the feeling of losing something I never though I could have he has two other kids and don't get me wrong I love the kids a lot but sometimes I just can't stand that his ex witch is a horrible mother can have kids and it's so hard for me to conceive idk I need advice and someone to talk to anyone out there