Giving up

I know there are women out there who have been TTC way longer than I have but I just can't do this each month. It has been a year and trying and trying. Every day I find out another person is pregnant in my family or around me. I'm happy for them, but why not me? My son was conceived 1st try. I can't see the disappointment on my hubby's face again. This month really thought it was it tired,sore breasts, eating a lot then bam Af shows.. Sorry just ranting.