He is 5 years older than me and I feel like he is more ready than I am. I think it's the right time since he's approaching 30, we've been married for four years, and our parents are getting older. But I can't help but be afraid and to feel like I should refuse sex when I'm ovulating to "protect " myself. Part of me wants to get pregnant, but a big part of me really doesn't and wants to continue enjoying time with just us!  Have you guys experienced this? Is it normal? Am I weird?

Also, I'm terrified of gaining weight during pregnancy and having my body change and not having the thin, young, healthy body I currently have and work hard for. Have you guys experienced this? 

Thanks for your thoughts...it's all I can think about these days!!