I am dealing with so many emotions right now. One of my very best friends just told me she is pregnant. I lost my baby in February and she was one of my biggest supporters during it all. I feel bad that I can't be happy for her right now.  I have been completely honest with her about my feelings but the fact that I'm jealous and not happy for her really makes me feel like a horrible person. Not only am I still dealing with my loss but now I have to figure out how to deal with her. I want things to be normal between us but it's hard. I have to see her everyday because we work together and it gets awkward whenever she brings the pregnancy up.  I know she didn't get pregnant to spite me and to stab me in the back so why does it feel like that?  Ugh. I hate this. And to make matters worse, my husband has no clue how I feel so I'm completely alone.  I wish miscarriage didn't exist. It's not fair. 😔