December 8, 2014 while going for my ultrasound my SO & I were told that the baby's heart wasn't fully inside the chest cavity & the skull wasn't filled formed. I immediately broke down asking were they sure & why me. We cried & asked the docs what could be done. All they said was to terminate bc the chance of baby surviving full term were slim to none & if it would surviving birth wasn't less than 1%...I was devastated. Docs told us to come back in a week to decide what we were gonna do. December 16, we decided to terminate & that by far was the hardest decision we ever had to make, had surgery January 7, 2015 @ 14 weeks to terminate. Found out it was a girl also........well I found out Sunday im about 4 weeks pregnant & I'm scared & nervous. As much as I wanna be happy I'm scared to be happy until the second trimester bc I'm afraid of losing my baby again...is this normal?! Any words of advice