My husband just came back from a 3 week business trip in Asia a few days ago.. We live in California. He left right after my birthday and was so busy prepping for his trip that we didn't have sex for a good week before he left. Now he's home and won't even touch me because he says it's weird. I'm so sad because sex is important to me and I am already having insane self esteem issues because I've gained 50 lbs from my usual petite and fit body.... I already feel like a giant whale and now I just can't stop crying. I feel so stupid for crying because he doesn't want to have axe but I feel so unattractive. I even had my hair and makeup done to pick him up from the airport and he didn't notice.... Tried to give him a blow job and he had to "work" and left MID attempt..... Just feeling really low right now and still six weeks to go before baby.... And then can't have sex for a while after that ..... Freaking out that he won't ever want to again...