Ive decided I'm a pee stick addict

According to glow AF  was due today and my O day was 3/30...and according to ovia AF due 4/16 with O day 4/3...I have shamefully tested six times all BFN 😔 I keep hoping AF will stay away and today will be my BFP...according to ovia I'm just 8dpo and should wait another 6 to test... But I keep hoping that it will show up early... After all my husband's birthday is this Sunday how great would it be to hand him a positive