I wish I could go back in time to the 1st time I was pregnant... back when those 2 lines meant I was having a baby.. before I learned what loss felt like, when it was exciting and not stressful. Back then MC was just a worry in the back of my mind, something that couldn't happen to me. That 1st pregnancy was perfect, everything was by the book, every normal symptom followed by a normal delivery and healthy baby girl. 2 years later everything I thought I knew about pregnancy would change, that excitement would be changed forever. Almost 1 yr later my perfect rainbow baby was born. She was/is so worth it. Now here I am, went through another loss in January and now pregnant with (hopefully) my 2nd rainbow. I want to enjoy every second of it and I'm excited but cautious.