Ladies I am dearly in need of help. The 24 of this month makes one year since I found out my SO cheated. He did so while I was pregnant. A few weeks before I was pregnant I found my brother died and I do admit, I pushed everyone away. I wouldn't eat take or sleep. And didn't for months. The. I found my nanny is dieing and three days after I found out he was cheating. He said he'd quit. Two weeks late I found out he never did so I told him I wanted him it of my life and he wasn't to be there when I had the baby. And of course he cried. I gave him another chance. I was raised with a very good heart. Well he has shown me he is trying. He goes out his way for me now and we've become better. But. I cannot seem to trust him. Or even try and I feel horrible about It. I feel still I'm not enough and am waiting for it to happen again. I'm terrified. Please help me get through this. I do not know why I can not make it through this. I find myself feeling Like I'll never be enough still to this day. I want to make this work. I do. How can I make myself feel better.