so me and my husband were in a LDR until a few months ago since i moved the almost 4000 miles to be with him.

last time i was here was in November, i came over for thanksgiving and we were together all the time(he didnt have a job back then) and had sex 12 times in 14 days.

back to now, he works 8hr shifts five days a week (3-11pm), so we dont see each other much... i've been here for 80 days, and we've had sex 28 times. in 80 days... 😧 he says he has a high sex drive and yet it's always me who wants it. and he always says we'll do it and it doesnt happen. we got a new bed yesterday and he was going 'we'll need to break that in later😉😏' and stuff. we did it once, and it was just like normal. he lasts about 3-5 minutes and then goes play his video games or w/e, whether i finished or not. he's not big on foreplay, only until im wet enough for him. and i dont even remember the last time he stayed with me and cuddled after... 😞 it makes me feel like he just uses me for sex. he always smokes after and i wouldnt even mind if he smoked in bed with me, if it meant i got more time with him and i hate the smoke!😔

also, he has said he doesnt want kids yet, despite the fact i have baby fever ten-fold. and yet i am the one on birth control. im on the pill and HE, who is the one who doesnt want kids, wont use condoms. im only on bc because of him, if it was up to me i'd stop it. 😫