So just had dinner with my family and my younger sister tells me that she's pregnant on her third child! I'm happy for her, I really am! She found out in January 30th soon after I had my first miscarriage, I guess she just couldn't tell me soon enough.  Its really hard to keep a happy face when that's what you've been wanting.  I get that things happen for a reason but really does it have to be rubbed all up in my face! I'm 33 years old and still trying for my first!  I'm frustrated! What I took from my first miscarriage was at least I know I CAN get pregnant, but still people like my mom or my SO's parents treat me like I can't carry a child! So the only person I tried to vent to (my SO) we ended up arguing over it! Sometimes I feel like no one could really understand how it feels! I'm really more disappointed that I can't even share how I truly feel with anyone! Sometimes I just want to getaway from all of this and just be by myself!