Taking a ttc break

Mary • 37 yrs old and just gave birth to my rainbow baby 2/22/17 after having had 6 losses and I'm expecting again on 2/9/18
I have 4 kids followed by 4 unexplained mc's. Been ttc since November of last yr and the cm watching, when's my fertile week, do I have enough opk's, let me check the preseed supply has become too much stress. I'm letting it all go for my sanity and just praying that if it's meant to happen, it'll happen. Sorry, I just had to vent that out.