My best friend was late for her AF so I gave her one of my tests to take to ease her mind. She came out if the restroom and handed me the test with two VERY dark lines. She was upset and crying because her and her bf are not in a position to have a child right now.

I have been trying for nearly 16 months to no avail. After she calmed down she got excited then upset because 1) it was the <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a> of my college graduation & 2) she knows how down I have been about not being able to conceive.

She is my best friend and I assured her that everything will be alright, I'll help her anyway I can etc... I don't want her feeling bad because we can't conceive (yet) I know she will be an amazing mother.

Even though I am happy (even though concerned) for her, it's hard for me to not be depressed. I would give my life for her so I really am genuinely happy for her, but I'm battling not getting depressed for me & us.

To make matters worse my mother was here when she did the test and kept saying things to me that (quite frankly) I am so sick of hearing (when the time is right it will happen, you could always adopt etc...). This will be the hardest baby shower I have thrown.

I just want to give up. If everyone around me gets pregnant by surprise when they are in no position to have a child, when I waited until I was financially and emotionally stable I feel as if I'm being punished for it.

I'm sick of trying, I'm sick of being disappointed, I'm just sit and tired of TTC. The last 3 months I've been trying the 'quit trying' method... And nothing

Idk what to do. I'm sorry for the long rant. My heart is broken, I feel defeated. How do you guys deal with this? I'm about to throw in the towel at 31 years old. I've been fighting back tears all weekend. I didn't even enjoy my college graduation. Idk I'm so down right now.