Feeling sad

Lisa • Married for 4 years and together for 9. TTC #1. Diagnosed male factor infertility. Struggling but still hopeful.
Just feeling discouraged tonight. We're month 11 of ttc and period is due tomorrow. Took an early pregnancy test and it was negative.  I know plenty of couples take much longer than this to conceive but I really feel like it's not going to happen for us.  It's hard to shake feeling so crappy about it and not be bitter.  I guess I always took it for granted that it would quick, easy, and fun. With each month it gets a little bit less of each.