How did you deal from the loss of your ectopic pregnancy / infertility

Mell • Diagnosed with endometriosis, pid... Had an ectopic pregnancy 01/10/2012 my angel baby<3
I'm having a really hard time acepting that What happened to me in 2012 (ectopic pregnancy) and since that I have never gotten pregnant again. I feel myself being so angry at the world for being "infertile" like why me .. I know I'm not alone but I feel so alone ... The day I found out I was gonna be a mommy was the best day of my life and it got taken away so soon, and now I can't even get pregnant . Ugh I hate this whole try , loss bs .. Anyways just looking for some friendly advice from some Woman who actually know what it's like ... I don't have many people in my life that suffer with this ; in the total opposite everyone around me has kids and happy families and it just makes me that more sad :( 
Anyways  thank you so much for listening , hope to hear from you girls xo much love *baby dust to all of you:* 
The attached picture is all I have from my baby . 01/10/2012 💜💙💜 mommy loves you  forever xxxxoo