Just need to get it off my chest

My baby passed at 15 weeks 3 days Nobody but the hubby and I know. We were waiting until Mothers Day to spill the beans but ended up having a D&C the day before. My heart hurts. In really angry and sad and disappointed. I can't talk about it but at the same time I need to talk about it. So here I am. Just venting. Who would have know it was possible to miss someone so much, when you never really had them in the first place? I know time heals all wounds; where in the hell is the fast forward button?