I feel so broken.

I don't know if I want to keep trying. Its hurting more and more every month... I feel so broken like something is wrong with me and it'll never be able to be fixed. Its so simple I just want a baby. Not a million dollars. Just a sweet little healthy baby that's all. I keep beating myself up and just slowly pieces of my heart feel like they're dying... I'm over dramatic people say but it hurts my heart like nothing before.