There's nothing I want more..

Everyone has always told me I would make a great mother some day. Well there's nothing I want more than to be a mother and to experience the amazing gift of a child. The more I want it and the more we try, the more I feel like it's impossible. In high school I had a friend who liked to do this catholic thing with a necklace that would tell you how many children you would have. I didn't believe in stuff like that, but she insisted. It said I wouldn't have children. It's been in the back of my head ever since. Three years ago I was pregnant but miscarried after 14 weeks. After that I have been in a depression that has controlled my life and I feel as if I have no purpose. I see all these people having children who honestly do not deserve it like some who do but are not lucky enough. I just want to be a mom 😢