Why???

Cha💜
Why is it since I've decided to start trying for a baby all I see is baby stuff for sale or when I go out or people who are pregnant what about when will it be my trun I've been trying for a year next month with one miscarriage in October after that everyone kept telling me I will fall again quickly as I fell quickly with my last and also how quick I fell after coming of birth control grrrr really gets to me all I want is to be pregnant dose this make me selfish?? Why can't it be as easy as other stuff???