Hello there unwanted.

So my Aunt flow made her first appearance today, I always spot before I start and I'm 2 days away. So I changed my status to avoiding pregnancy. I still want a baby desperately, but until my husband and I can get on the same page let alone have the same book I guess it's what's best. I'm sad, because I feel like I'm not aloud to have a baby, or even be able to try. It makes me feel trapped. I just don't want to have another baby with anyone other than my husband so divorce is not the answer. I'm so lost and confused, ugh until I can get the right mind about this I just need to let it be.