I hate her ( rant)

I hate my mom absolutely hate her. To this day she will not give the smallest apology for beating the shit out of me all my childhood. Treats my younger sister like gold. I didn't have her at my wedding because she didn't deserve to be there. When my daughter was born she refused to see her even when I went to see her on lunch. Only calls me when her fuck toy leaves her and she needs to move again. And. Now my aunt (her twin) wants me to affiliate myself with her again. I can't I just harbor so much hate for her. Idk what to do. Sorry ladies I just needed to vent I'm in tears over this again 😭