What I wish I could say to my man.

The second I laid eyes on you my heart skipped a beat. The lights got brighter, and I could actually feel a sparkle light up my eyes. I felt as if I had been asleep forever and just then woke up. Like it was the first day of my life. My story started right when you smiled that amazing smile. I felt as if I had known you all my life. Like you were an old friend I hadn't seen in years. And I was filled with joy that you had finally come home. You were instantly my favorite person. At the time, all I could hope for was for us to be life long friends. Obviously I would've loved to be more, to touch you, to fuck you. But I would've settled for just friends because it didn't matter what role you played as long as you were in my life somehow. Wishing to be your woman seemed greedy. Like meeting you was winning the lottery and I was asking for a million dollars more. But I'm glad I decided to be greedy, I rolled those dice and got that extra cash. You mean the world to me. Not a day goes by that I don't think about you. You are permanently engraved into my mind. The best day I've had in years was just me and you in our undies, sipping on wine, eating soft pretzels and watching bad tv. It's fine that you don't feel the same, I've finally accepted that. I just needed to you know. I love you, always have; always will.