Me and my boyfriend broke up 2 days ago and he was my first love so the first break up that ever mattered to me. At first I thought it was for the best but after not even a day I realized how stupid all the reasons were that I was fine with the break up and now I'm crushed but he didn't seem too sad about it (even though it was over text so I couldn't tell completely) because he said he didn't know if he loved me anymore. We've been together apart a year and when he did love me, he really loved me. And I was hoping he just needed some time and we might get back together and it's only been 2 days so I guess it could happen but I have a feeling he's not even sad about breaking up and that makes it 500x worse for me I really just hope hes really sad about this and that probably makes me a terrible person but I just can't stop picturing him all happy and relieved. I guess this was more of a rant sorry I just had to get all this out because normally he's the one I would talk about stuff with but now we can't talk and I really want to text him (we're in long distance) and I want to wait like a week but I'm scared either he'll be over me by then of he was sad at all or I'm scared he won't want to talk to me at all and that would hurt too much but I want to talk to him. There's not even a question anymore I was gonna ask of it made me a terrible person for hoping he's sad about the break up too but I couldn't stop typing maybe someone has some advice? I don't even know what I want advice about I'm so sorry