I don't want to be here

After 2 years of TTC we have hit a huge bump.  We have to put off TTC as my husband is sick.  He's on medication that specifies not to conceive-regardless who's taking it.  We are both upset that after so long TTC it may never happen.  Now we focus on him and preventing a child that we've be trying so hard to have.  I am emotionally sad and depressed.  I am trying to be strong for him...sorry for the vent