I GIVE UP!!! 😢😧😠

This has been a long rough 3 years. I had a beautiful little girl in 2012. My husband and I want another one but it's not working I've had 3 miscarriages and one ectopic at 10 weeks 2 years ago. It's heartbreaking I just want my bfp. They took my tube and the baby out when I was rushed to emergency surgery, the stupid Dr even told me the baby had a heartbeat but they had to get rid of it. I get pregnant but it doesn't stick of something goes wrong. I had an laproscopy a month ago along with a tubal dye insulflation and told it drastically raises your chances of getting pregnant after having it done. Well, I'm 9dpo and couldn't wait I took a test and this is what I got. But my legs itch in woke up today and my boobs are killing me. Not to mention I hate water I'm a strict pop drinker and the last week it's nothing but water powered and lemonade. I want to take the trash out of the can and started dry heaving. I don't get it... this is all so frustrating I'm wore out and just ready for my rainbow baby but I feel it will never happen. Guess I'm just depressed and needed to get this off my chest 😕