So tired of ttc

Started ttc June 2014. Had a chemical pregnancy September 1, 2014 @4.3weeks (extremely devastating so I thought) finally conceived on Christmas got a bfp first week of January went in for 8 week ultrasound February 9 to find I had a missed miscarriage (no heartbeat) ((okay now this was completely devastating)) took cytotec to help me pass everything and found out I needed to have a d&c for left over tissue three months later so on April 28 I had a d&c. My doctor gave me the clear right away to ttc again. Yes I know this was the first month back at it and I really didn't expect for us to get pregnant and we didn't 😔 still gets me down though. I'm perfectly healthy 24 year old come from a family of fertile mertles ... I know that don't always mean anything... And out of many generations I'm the first to have a miscarriage. It SUCKS. But that's not the hard part... Me and the hubs don't get to try every month like most couples. His job really henders ttc lol. As for this month I know I am already out because he is gonna be out of town. And I don't know if he will be home for the following month or the next... During the "right" time. 😕😕😕 Which makes ttc difficult. I know there are some who has it worse than me. And I'm am so sorry for my rant it just sucks and I understand how hard it is. Ttc not knowing when you will actually be able to "try" not knowing if you are ovulating ... My thing is I know I'm ovulating ... I know I can get pregnant... Not sure if I can keep a pregnancy... I hope I can... But my hubs stupid job is getting in the way of ttc... And I don't know when will will be able to ttc again 😭 please I hope no one takes offense to anything I've said I do not mean any disrespect or think that my life is worse than anyone's I'm just in a low point right now 😕