Gut feeling? Anxiety ?

My fiancé and I each have daughters from previous marriages. We all want a boy so badly. I instinctly think its a boy. Daydream about our little boy etc. I'm starting to have anxiety thinking what if it's a girl. I'm scared I'm going to be disappointed because all we talk and think about is boy. We go in for gender test next thur. We even did that silly at home gender test and it said boy. ( we know it's a 50/50 shot on it being right) is anyone else feeling like this? Of course what matters is that we have a healthy baby no matter what it is.