Sad....

I want to have a baby already. I never thought it would be this much heartache involved it making something that is suppose to be such a blessing. Over 3 years, 2 miscarriages and 1 ectopic later. 1 tube gone, 2 hsg done and 5 rounds of clomid and absolutely nothing but heartache. Just totally depressed. No period yet this month but sore breast, cramping, and moodiness tells me that bitch is on her way. Soooooooooooooooooooooo over this already. It seems like some girls can look and get pregnant by any tom dick or Harry and here I am married, steady good paying jobs, truly committed, and yet nothing. So cruel sometimes life can be.