I lost my baby

Mary
Heartbeat at 8weeks. 10 week appointment and nothing. I didn't know I could hurt this much. My little baby is gone, and I loved it so much. I wanted it so much.
This is the most traumatic thing I've ever had to go through. It's heartbreaking and gut wrenching to know it's still inside me and that I'll never be able to hold my baby or kiss them. 
This was my first pregnancy. My first baby and now it's gone