I'm a crying mess right now, so I apologize if I ramble.

My husband and I are ttc so I stopped taking my medication that I've been on for years. I've been struggling with extreme anxiety since I've been off and have become agoraphobic. It's hard for me to even leave the house to walk my dog. I need to drink alcohol to manage going to stores or anything in public.

My husband knows. His family's annual reunion is this weekend and I told him I'm too scared to go. He is usually so supportive but he became so upset and turned it around on me. He's much more concerned about how his family will react and what to say to them than how I'm feeling or my anxiety.

I feel so awful that I'm scared to go but I don't think I can. I took a stand this week and saw a therapist and I'm trying to control my anxiety but I can't turn it off after one visit with a therapist. I don't know what to do. I feel terrible about myself.