Feeling anxious....

So August is getting really close and along with that comes our angel baby's due date... The last few months I have been feeling great and haven't really cried or dwelled on it and I think about it less and less but with August approaching some sadness comes back. Also seeing my manager who go pregnant right when  I miscarried is hard too... I told my husband that I'm not sure how I will react when August comes. I can't tell if I'm okay and solid or if I will be depressed. I honestly think I'm okay, but it is hard to tell with things like this. Luckily in August we will be fully settled into my mother in laws house and her parents fly out to visit that month so I can possibly be distracted. But I don't know... I feel more anxious and sad as it gets closer... But I'm hoping once it's passed I will feel better and free from the constant thought of "I would be __ weeks along now" I am just praying for our rainbow baby soon. My husband and I so desperately want our baby...