(venting)

I just feel by myself in this big world. I just wanna be shook. I just wanna wake up. I wanna get out.

I dont know what to do anymore. Ive looked all around and no one is here. Just me. I feel trapped in a world i wish wasn't given to me. God im trying to trust you. I wish i could go back to the 5 year old that knew everything was a part of your plan. They tear me down when they find out i praise you but forever will i be willing to die for your name. Im trying to stay strong but the clouds feel like they are only growing darker. Sometimes i just wish i could wake up. My late night thoughts are what scare me the most but even now do they hunt me during the day. I just wanna scream. Get my thoughts out. Im tired of listening and never being heard. People are so petty and fake it's ridiculous. Im tired of watching the news. Im tired of social media. Im just tired.