I am married, and quite young. I want more than anything to be a mom. yesterday I was diagnosed with polycystic ovary syndrome and they suspect endometriosis... which hurt me more than anything. But what is worse is i am not getting the help i need because i have high blood pressure, a heart disease, hyperaldosteronism, and a heart murmur. I just feel like i want to be a mother more than i want anything else. And that it is so hard to get. I am hurt. I feel like ive let my husband down. I feel like ive let myself down.