A mess 😞

Katie • Stay at home mommy as of 6/30/16!!!
Just got my period today! Least on time. And it's so weird for the past week and a half I have had cramping but no sign of a period and I totally thought that I had it this month that I was going to find out I was pregnant. I know I gave in and I tested on Sunday and it came back negative which I wish I never even tested. 
I feel like every freaking month is such a let down. I feel like I am never going to get pregnant have kids. I'm 33 been trying for 10 months. Why me? 
I have an appt July 9th that can't come fast enough to see if we can speed this process up. We are let down each month and I can't put myself through this devistation anymore. 
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