I am known to panic over everything that doesn't go as planned, and I know that you can't exactly plan your baby to the day, but I can't help but now think that all of my carelessness in my teens/20s is getting back at me.

I always wanted to wait until I was married, and in my early 30s (I'll be 32 in august) before having kids. When I was younger and not so on top of things I fell pregnant a few times (I did not go through with them), and know I feel like I missed my chances.

We have only been trying for one cycle, and my husband did just turn 40, but know I can't stop thinking about all of the potential problems I may have caused; what if too many terminations left me infertile? What if my husband is now to old?

I have extremely regular periods, and can feel when I ovulate. No yeast infection, no abnormal smelling or discharge.

I just fell like when I didn't want it to happen, it kept happening like clock work, and when he wasn't ready he had my step daughter at 21. Now that we are ready and want this is not happening!

I just need some helpful and honest advice add I do not have any women to ask as I live in a small well to do town where if you tell one person your problem or concern everyone knows.

Thanks