I want to just leave.

Leave everything and everyone behind.

I have a 5 month old baby with a guy who's a sweet heart and really treats me like a princess.

The reason why I want to leave is because I feel like ever since I had my son(and even before that) alot of people give me sh*t about it. I don't know why.

My parents are opening a business up and I was happy to be able to work with them but now I can't because no one will watch my baby and daycare is too expensive.

If I stay at home, I feel like my mother in law is just judging me for not working.

So I went to go get a job at a daycare because where else can I possibly work with a baby, and I hate it.

The job is minimum wage and I have to change other kids diapers. For 7 dollars an hour?

I feel as if all my hopes and dreams are now shattered since having my son because I can't do anything and I have to work a job I don't like. I haven't gotten paid minimum wage since my first job ever.

So I'm planning on leaving. Just leaving. Jumping in my car and leave to another state and start from scratch. Yes it will hurt me to leave my baby and my boyfriend but I just can't do this anymore. It's not fair.

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Ni

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Wow. I'm sorry but you are coming off as very immature, spoiled, and ungrateful. These problems are not so bad.... You are a mother. Suck it up. Figure it out. Your child deserves better!

Ni

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Wow leave your baby and boyfriend. Leaving you boyfriend to be happy is one thing but your baby. Maybe you shouldn't have had a child if you think that it is your happiness that comes first.

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I am so sorry you feel this way. I really encourage you to talk to someone that can help you sort out these feelings before you make any big decisions...it can only help your situation, & if it doesn't, you can go back to your original plan...although, I think you might change your mind if you talk to the right people. Women have these feelings all the time & it shows a lot of strength & character to be honest & reach out for help. Good luck❤️

Ca

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I'm so surprised by the comments here..Hun what your describing sounds like postpartum depression which by the way for all the nasty comments here is very common.. What I can say is fuck your mother in law shut her out as much as I can.. And seek for help because you're not the first or last to feel this way and there are ways other then running away from your problems that will help you love your life.. Don't mind the stupid comments here and all the hate just work on getting better.. Good luck

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✨sparkle🐠cubs™️✨ • Jun 26, 2015
I agree...when I read this, the first thing that popped into my head was postpartum. Breaks my heart.

Sh

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Have you thought about seeing if you could apply for subsidized child care? Then you could work or go to school. Also, maybe getting a night job part time? Maybe that could give you a purpose and direction? Have you talked to someone? Do you feel depressed? Ppd is a real thing.

Ic

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Look, I know it seems hard, but that's because you're taking other people's opinions into consideration. Which is really stupid since they aren't doing jack crap to help you. So instead of running away like a spoiled teen who clearly doesn't understand what she has, you start doing what you want to do. If you don't want that min wage job, QUIT! You wanna be a stay at home mom, go for it! Tell the haters that they can stuff it. But don't leave your baby. That's stupid, selfish, and immature.

Li

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This is terrible. Maybe they'd be better off without you.

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Holy crap I can't believe some of these comments. My dear, it really does sound like postpartum depression, and there's no shame in getting help! Please ignore the nasty comments and understand that this is very common and very very fixable. There's usually free clinics out there for mental health, and even some that specifically help new moms. Hang in there, I hope you find the help you need.

Gr

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You can't leave, you have a baby. Saying that, I think I know how you feel. I worked full time before I has my son, now I stay home with him. It took A LOT of time to get used to not working and having my own money. I felt judged by my mil too. But now my son is two and I see that staying home with him has been so beneficial, he is so smart and I value the extra time I get to spend with him. If your boyfriend is fine with you staying home with your child, cherish the fact that you can.

El

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If it will hurt you to leave then maybe you should stay and work it out. Sign up for temp job, that is what I did. We all go through low points in  life. Sign up for government assistance if you need help financially. You need to talk someone you trust and tell them how you feel