Weird dreams

Brittany • Mommy to a wonderful 12yr old boy, 9yr old boy 7yr old girl 6yr old girl and 3yr old girl. Due March 11th 2023 with a boy.
I keep having dreams that I give birth to my baby and my SO is never there he always shows up afterwards and then it's always a boy when I'm having a girl. Also the baby is usually deformed or As tiny as my hand. It drives me crazy.