I am beyond nervous to start trying because I am so terrified I won't be able to conceive. I don't know why I feel so scared but everyone around me has kids and my SIL just found out she's pregnant after being off BC for less than a month. I'm so scared it's going to be hard for me. We are starting to try in December but the anticipation of not knowing if I'm fertile sends me into crying fits. Im starting to prepare now & i don't even want to tell anyone when we start trying because if something is wrong and I can't I will just be devastated and don't want anyone knowing when they all have babies. Is that so stupid? I'm only 24 & have never tried and I know it's silly but it is just the scariest thought to have to try for years when it's so easy for everyone around me. I feel like I would be the one to struggle because I am the one who waited until the right time and I'm the one that has wanted kids since I was little! I feel stupid for even having this fear when it could be super easy for me but I can't get the thought from being in the back of my head.