Was molested and probably has been getting molested by my exes step dad... I don't know how to handle this I feel like a shit mom! I'm numb I guess I'm repressing it because it brought back memories I didn't even know I have of my grandma's ex husband doing that to me... I can't even connect with my previous baby girl anymore... I find myself treating her like an adult because she's so smart... I forget she's a baby still... I feel like I can't hug her without thinking about what happened to her and myself... I almost avoid her... Idk what to do :'( idk how to cope and give my daughter a better life...