Scared to test

Elizabeth • Married for 10 years 2 beautiful daughters 7 and 3

At 12 dpo I started getting AF type cramps and had some brown spotting. Typically I get the spotting a few days before AF. I just knew it would show and I got so sad. We went out of town and I packed a bag with all the nessecities. Well the spotting was very short lived and very little. AF never showed but the cramps were off and on. I'm 16dpo today and still nothing. I hate to get my hopes up to see yet another negative test. I'm planning on testing Saturday when my husband will be home. This would be our rainbow baby.

I took a test last night. I was sure it would be negative since it was so late in the evening.... I saw a line but I convinced myself it was an indent.