I have decided to wait

Hk Girl • Okay guess that needed updating. I am now 34 years old and not getting any younger I have currently had 15 miscarriages and have been trying for 6 years.
So I'm technically 9 days late but I had some bleeding the 2-4 spotting mostly but whatever.
I have decided to wait and just go on like I'm not pregnant and wait until af is supposed to visit again on the 30/31 of the month
I just can't bring myself to test I get too scared