So my last post about I don't know what to do anymore just got even more complicated :/. Since the weekend I went away I have felt like he's hiding something. Turns out he was. My ex whom had raped me in February had his friends find my bf now and beat him. They found him and jumped him. They said that if he didn't break up with me they were going to hurt me. And ever since then someone has been following me and stalking around my house. So that's what he was hiding, but it doesn't change anything for the better. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm depressed. I feel like everyone would be better off without me. I've started cutting again:/ and I cry myself to sleep ever night. I haven't eaten in almost 2weeks. I just don't know what to do anymore 😞