Gosh I'm so out of my element right now, I'm not one to usually converse my feelings.

However I feel pretty down and out right now and I just need some support.

Me and my husband have been married going on 3 years, we have two beautiful children.

We have a wonderful relationship. He is the love of my life and I adore him more than anything!

However I feel like he doesn't feel the same about me anymore. He hasn't said anything directly stating that or even indirectly.

I just have this weird gut feeling that something isn't right!

I trust him more than anyone, so no I don't think he is cheating. He is a wonderful man and I know he wouldn't hurt me in such a way.

See the problem started a few months ago, I was pregnant with our daughter and I was miserable when we would have sex, I was always in pain. Well I was using his phone one night and I opened up Google and there were several porn sites. I was ticked off at first MAINLY because he didn't tell me about it. I'm not really jealous about that type of stuff because I to have watched pornin the past and I know it's sexually stimulating especially for men.

He apologized and said he was just embarrassed (of what I Don't know!)

Well out of curiosity I went through his phone several more times, and he had been watching it. Which like I stated wasn't a big deal I was just hurt and confused as to why it was such a secret. We tell each other everything else, so why not tell me you watch porn? Heck, I would watch it with him.

Keep in mind this was back in March the last time I saw anything on his phone.

However here lately I feel like there is this strange void between us. He goes through these weird phases where he is so distant towards me physically, which of course effects me emotionally. It makes me feel like he's not attracted to me anymore and it really has my self esteem low.

He's not an affectionate person and never has been. I told him how I felt a few weeks ago and he has been more affectionate towards me, but I still can't shake the feeling that I have. I Don't even really know why I feel this way (if that makes any sense. ) so I have no idea how to communicate with him how I feel because I can't make sense of it myself.

When we have sex It's not intimate like it used to be. I feel like he's not emotionally connected. I can't even get into it because I have a million thoughts and feelings running through me. It makes me want to cry.

My parents had a very bad relationship and they divorced when I was really young. My dad has an addiction to porn. I'm terrified that this emotional void I'm feeling is because my husband isn't thinking about me when we have sex.

I don't even know how to approach him with this! Any advice?