:/ scared

tenille
got the faintest of faint lines two days before expected period. I'm not even excited. we stopped trying due to miscarriage trauma and relationship strain. we decided to maybe go our seperate ways. I don't even know how to feel. I have spent over two years praying crying and suffering withttc. two horrible miscarries. I don't even know what I'm saying. I'm just scared. 
slightly annoyed also that it happened as soon as I stopped trying. everyone always says that to try make you feel better .. 😖