Depressed at the moment...

You know those days u just feel depressed and need someone to talk to... Well I'm really the only one awake.. I just need my boyfriend.. But have u ever messed up so much in a relationship u care about.. And realize how much u hurt the person u love 😞.. I can't stop thinking about all the stupid mistakes I did that I could of easily avoided, but I was dumb n didnt, I'm so angry at myself for some of the stuff that happened months ago.. Its only 7am n I'm crying .. Idk what to do anymore 😢